I haven't been on here much. I know that I set this blog up so that I had an outlet to talk about the things that I felt couldn't talk about with my friend and family. I hate that I feel that I have to be strong for all of them. I don't know where this came from or why I feel this way. I don't really know why I will tell the whole world what is happening and yet people that I know love me I have a really hard time talking about it.

There have been some crazy things going on with me.

First, I have been having some medical test done. I don't know if anything is wrong or if I'm just making a lot of small things into something big. I have been having a lot of weird symptoms for about 5 months. I googled them, by the way never do that. I really doesn't matter because google is not a doctor but it gave me the worst of the worst. In other words google said I could die. I am being very over dramatic but it wasn't a comfort. Then I called and asked for some family history. That was bad. My family really should have taken better care of them selfs. So I have vowed to start taking better care of myself.

Last week I was really really scared about all of it. I talked to my husband and we spent a lot of time in prayer. I know that God is there for me. He gave me a peace about it all. If there is something really wrong then I will still praise him. If all is well, I will praise him. God has giving me so much in my life that I really am leaning on him though all of this. I'm not going to worry or stress about all of it.

I went to the doctor last week and she said that it was more than likely nothing to worry about but she is going to run more tests. So later this week more tests YES I LOVE TESTS. I will let you all know how everything goes.